aw man i feel so prouda myself :DD
of course lah being alone at home isn't a small feat
need so muxh courage, especially at night
and guess what, i keep hearing noises
but the moment i switched on the light,
the noise is gone
haizz must be i think too much
anyway, i'm prouda myself :D
hmm though i'm not going,
the least thing i can do is to start things going
yesh i'm excited
at least i'm part of the preparation process :)
it's just so fated
4 FOUR years already
not even a chance to sleep in school for 3 continuous days :'(
ohwells
shall put all my heart and soul into the camp booklet
haha BOOK COMM ! :)
Tuesday, May 30, 2006 at 5:15 AM
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uhm i hope my presence won't cause anything anymore
i hate apologising
when you say too much of it,
the word 'sorry' loses its worth ey.
anyways, i sent my siblings off
yep they're abandoning me
haha no lah i caused myself to be in this state.
and if that isn't bad enough,
tmr my family except me are celebrating popo's birthday
haiss miss another family gathering
when will i have another one?
ohwells
but i know they miss me A LOT ALOT
cos they called me thrice using the airport's free calls
and my sis went online to talk to me
haha ahyes i'm alone with the maid
at least for today bcos she's leaving tmr
haha i conquer the whole house!!!! x)
not looking forward though
haha i shall go up to grace's house before the sun goes down !
aw man
hmm let's see
they should have arrived now
and it's time for me to eat dinner
hah they would probably be eating at mangga besar or moytung
ok ok i should stop !
i'm just making it worse
haha my maid just entered the room and said
"i'll be leaving tmr at eight.
but i'll sweep, mop the floor and iron the clothes before i go."
woah i was so touched lah
haha hmm that's what i called being responsible ! :D
up till today, i dont know what's her name :/
ohwells she called me small sister
i called her big sister too ?
hahaha
hmm today's supposedly to be a special day
Saturday, May 27, 2006 at 4:00 AM
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it is scary when
you start to have dubts in yourself
maybe i should not be.
i told you i should not.
what i did was wrong
but it seemed right to me.
i' shall not make anymore decisions.
you'll hate it too when you're being called what you're not.
sometimes, you just need others to tell you how much you're worth.
for now, i feel so little.
i know it's never going to be easy.
but it just pains when your effort has been misunderstood
i hope you will understand
but i know you wouldn't
rahh i couldn't sleep now.
the thoughts just kill me.
i hope they really do kill
your words are so strong that it makes me feel so small
if you can accept something like that, then i see no more future.
pple can just come and go whenever they like
it's so difficult. why not you try it ?
i hope you understand that i cant take it lying down.
the issue may seem small but you dont know how deep it has gone.
maybe i should just stop.
i'm going to leave anyway.
just last year
i promised you so many things
i really did my best
but maybe it wasn't good enough
i'm so sorry
let's not wait for the day to come?
just simply end it here.
sack me.
Thursday, May 25, 2006 at 11:31 AM
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hmm can officially go clubbing without hiding my identity
can finally watch a M18 movie
AND NC16 movie too ! :)
go and learn driving
get married and have kids
so to sum it all up, i'm shi ba de gu niang yi duo hua
haha :)) not really a hua lah.
ystd's ecp is superb
you guys rock, really
let's learn cable-ski one day !
hahaha
the air of what an eighteen inhaled tastes so MUCH different :)
Saturday, May 13, 2006 at 5:30 PM
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haha i just realised i'm still part of marine parade
and ms lim was, "yea i wonder how we are still part of it bcos i never see any beach around!"
hahaha is marine parade supposed to have sea somewhere ?
ystd, me and grace went to watch a rally :D
saw so many tchrs
haha and the crowd is so omg
haha but it's very interesting esp when we're like foreigners ?
turning eighteen. EIGHTEEN. next week
luckily there's no more friday 13th to leap through
haha and yeap i shall enjoy my last few days of being seventeen
17 going on 18, no more 16 going on 17 :(
Saturday, May 06, 2006 at 12:45 AM
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just walking with nair in the morning under the clear blue sky already sounds good !
what's more really walking with her.
hahahaha so glad i came on the right time from the right entrance :D
and plus plus, she's gorgeous in black not as if she's not in other colours :D
ohwells was discussing with lingyan if i should go down for assembly cos of sth
somebody pls warn my oestrogen or progesterone to start producing !!!
bcos my endometrium cant take it any longer
urghh i hate the feeling.
oh yes! happee birthday jeannie !!
haha our squad mother :))
hope you like the present from all of us !
no cca this week
val was counting down how many more ccas we have left
and i bet it's less than 5
and i wonder how someone actually want to have cca just bcos she wants to ensure she has 75% attendance
huhh so weird
mum's back !
and she does all the ironing meant for two weeks in a record time of 5 hours !
she's really a superwoman sia
hahaha and now the house is well, our stomachs are well-fed
what else am i asking for mann ? :DD
haha and she remembers her promise !
pizza hut on my birthday and her mother's day !
hahahaha so fun.
and guess what.
i'm going back after all those fightings :/
my hope of going to JTC seems dashed
i shall carry on sa jiao-ing
i dont care !
i'm not missing my last, one and only JTC !
Wednesday, May 03, 2006 at 6:45 AM
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